Fun Optimizer

On being a fun optimizer with long term attention (e.g. optimizing long term fun by going to college)

Useful mental model:
When I try to systematically describe why I do things, the closest approximation is that I am a fun optimizer.
What is fun? Hard to describe. There’s some sense of pleasure involved, but I feel like it’s a lot deeper, even spiritual?

Luckily, my idea of fun has some ethical value, and generally tends to be self-improving. It’s fun to try and build things that make the world better, to learn and discover, to create and imagine.

So I guess I need to keep trying to tune my fun toward things because I can’t really change my fun optimization

Ok actually this was just the early stages of recognizing that my life is optimized towards meaning. I just didn't quite have the words for it yet in august.